I miss him so much it hurts...

[Dancin' Kate]

My dad comes home in a little while… but everyday until then feels like it's dragging by with agonizing slowness. I can't stop thinking about him. I want him home so bad it hurts.
This summer was so, so, so amazing for me- honestly, it really was. I got to see my grandma again and my cousin whom I love so much despite the fact she drives me absolutely bonkers. xD I got to spend an INSANE amount of time with my best friend in the whole world, and lets not forget I haven't seen her in almost two years. I met a great guy and totally fell for him within two weeks. I traveled to another fucking country with my best friend and met all these great, wonderful people and learned how to surf! I spent a week on the beach and now schools starting soon and I'll be reunited with all my friends.
But I can't shake the feeling that all of this would have been so much more memorable if only my dad could have been there to make the memories with me. To be there standing in the airport when I returned from my trip in Costa Rica and pick me up and laugh and joke like we always do about shit-service airlines.
And I feel like such a whiney bitch complaining about this, but… I know if I don't get this off my chest, it'll keep me awake for the rest of the night. I just miss him so much and I don't want him home in a month, or a week, or tomorrow. I want him home now. It's times like these when I just want to fucking tear out my hair and ball my eyes out because I can't stop my madness when I think about him. About how much he is suffering and how much he wants to be home, too…

[RiseAbove]

Kate, I feel for you. I don't have a dad away in the military that I miss so badly, but something in me feels like I'm in the same boat as you. Maybe it's because I have a father that I can't love. Just reading about how much you love your dad makes me smile. It's amazing. Really.

I hope that when you do get to see you dad again, it'll be indescribable, for lack of a better term.

[Dancin' Kate]

Maybe it's 'cause I'm an emotional wreak right now, but when I read your post Rise, I broke down in tears. You have no idea just how much those words of kindness mean to me right now... It's amazes me because right when I needed someone to show they care, I got a notification that someone posted here.
Thank you so, so, so much. It may be something little, but it means so much to me.
Thank you...

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